Left Brain vs Right Brain Part II

All right, it's weekend.. and few days going to celebrate Xmas, New Year Eve and welcoming a new year ahead.

I am wondering and asking myself of what I have been achieving till this second. Lets getting 'em through one by one

1. I finished my undergraduate and earn B.IE (Bachelor of Islamic Economic) in Accounting by 3.5 years, 4 years including my waiting time for inauguration. There was a special moment on that day (27November 2010), I never imagined nenek (granny) will come over my inauguration and I was so disappointed at me because I had a C which make me couldnt get a "distinction" even my cumulative GPA is more than 3.5 anyway at least nenek is so proud of me :)

2. Then at the beginning of 2011 I moved to Makassar for about 5 months, staying next to someone whom I love., I was working as a teacher (my passion). Makassar is a nice place besides its seafoodss, hummm nyummii.. *hungry tho*, but then I need to get back to Aceh

3. A month is my time in Aceh to process my graduate scholarship, I did wish to study in Germany and my hunch was too strong that I could pass that scholarship stuff, it turns out I missed, Gosh.. It broken my heart so much.. I cried for two days and regret and blame on anything.. too many "why" came out my mind till I decided to get away from Aceh and back to Jakarta, try to find a new life and work.

4. Yeahhh.. till this second I ended up in J-Town since July working as a Producer (newbie) and I may admit that sometimes I love this job but sometimes I feel I wanna move from here.. I have no special reason why and what do I wanna do after all..

5. Then, suddenly (after a year of thinking) I applied to be part of Indonesia Mengajar as Pengajar Muda, means that if someday I got selected somehow I have to leave my works and teach those vulnerable kids out there in Indonesia where I have no idea where will I be placed but I think it's my opportunity to gain more time in humanitarian works and as my portfolio to apply for the next scholarship since my boyfriend never asks me to get married *will he? I doubt it..


Anyway.. after all, that's my big commitment and I will be happy to be far far away from crowded place and gadget things *but still I love to have time and gadget to connect with the world and pass down message in my blog and my website by the way.. soon in 2012... yeayyy...


The question now is whats the best name for my website???

Ps: we made choices and we don't look back

Another day in Kopaja Part II

Just like other days in Kopaja where I have my time to see other sides of life either mine or others. I saw a blind man, he said nothing but I could understand that his life is much tougher than mine. But his face shows everything is easy and life is simple in this life then why I would be here, complaining anything. But let me tell ye'.. I am not complaining, I just wanna share what my life says and heart says. Then after all, I realize that the best way to share your thoughts is in twitter, personal blog/website or just keep 'em with you, since everybody get bored with what we talk and they concern nothing on you, why would they?

Anyway.. in Kopaja, I decided that I should follow what my heart says, should I concern others', sometime my heart says "yes" but do they concern mine?...

Maybe I should rewind my mind on 26December2004, on that day we could see how selfish us as human being, it's such a bullshit when anybody says "I do concern and think about you" no dude, don't try teach me on that thing, I was suffering, I was there, I saw and felt everything with my own. And once again, it's not complaining... I am just writing, you guys aint like it then just dont read my thoughts :)

I aint know.. here another time in Kopaja, I am thinking many things bout my life, how precious it was, how happy I were. Do ye' know why? it's just because I do all those things as what my heart says and since I love doing them while I get no hatred and obviously ton of responsibility within 'em but I could overcome.


Damn!!! I hate being hatred, and money is not the point of my life..
bug out is much better than being oppressed

Another day in "kopaja"

Could be seen on your face what the "kopaja" means here..



It's a stand for Koperasi Angkutan Jakarta (Cooperative Transport in Jakarta) is a cooperation providing public transport services in the form of a mini bus in Jakarta, Indonesia. Kopaja buses have the capacity of 20-30 seats like MetroMini. The color of Kopaja is green and white. But despite a capacity of 20-30 seats, these vehicles often exceed the capacity it should be. When viewed from the side of safety, this vehicle is not safe enough where the physical aspect of this vehicle is already not adequate for running. The drivers very often appear reckless on the road and do not pay attention to traffic signs on the road that can endanger other road users. Looking at the green color of the bus, this vehicle is a producer of significant pollution caused by machines that do not work properly so as to produce a fairly dangerous carbon exhaust from incomplete combustion.

Almost everybody ever step in and know how it is. It is cheap and can take you to your destination as long as you jump in the right code Kopaja.

Guava Production where I work is not too far from my house, or I could say that it takes 5 minutes on walk indeed, but I live alone in Jakarta and lonesome is my middle name. I love spend my live in office instead of house or elsewhere since I can do something here and learn new things. Back on the track of my writing, today I decide to sleep over in my friend's apartment in downtown and Kopaja is the best way (cheapest one) to reach it.

Singers, beggars, sellers etc are common things be found in Kopaja, some of them are keen but you may see the extortion as well here. It happens not on mine but the other kopaja on our right side. The singer is suck and from what I see that he's drunk.. he asks money from the passengers and if they dont give it, he is angry and yelling at them, what a rude boy!!.. Suddenly, the singers on my kopaja says "Ladies and Gentlemen, we beg your pardon but not all street singers are like the one you are looking at". And I hear the boy speaks to his friend to wait for that boy and will beat him up to teach him how to behave. I know, it's not proper but I think it's a good resolution though hhehehe..

Anyway... just another day in Kopaja

Ps: we made choices and we don't look back

Left Brain vs Right Brain (Part I)

Been ages write nothing, even today my days run as another day.. I may say Bruno Mars' song can represent my feeling.. today I dont feel like doing anything, I need to work and work instead, kinda funny though but ci'e la vie my fellas..

Well, It was in June but the pain is still keep remaining here in my heart, how could I was not able to pass the last test "interview" for that scholarship. Europe is my destination, not only for digging knowledge but also expand my errant. I chose Germany because ,, well no specific reason but I didnt pass it anyway. Honestly, I still keep it as a hammer on my head and make me afraid of trying for it.

This failure brought me back to J-town, the dream place of all Indonesian to gain pleasure, joy and glory. I ended up in a work where it is completely different of what I have been working so far.

I may say that, it s not hard nor easy either but everything ha a coin side, doesnt it?

Perhaps because it's a new field for me so I need to learn all those things and speed up, not easy but should I give up? Yet, this second I still keep trying and working on it and see how far it goes.

Cinematography, movie stuff, music videos and others.. It stress me up and put me down few times but most of my loved ones raise me up and believe that I can make it through no matter how, it is just a process when the process needs the time itself.

And here I am in Guava Production, we are making music videos and other entertainment stuff that you may order... Why? because "Thoughtful is Guava Production"



I know i am newbie here but i will give my best and learn all those things more and more and I will not give up yet until I can make a production starting from me and finish it as none complain on it... I do not give chance, I just need possible :)

Kindly enjoy my part in these masterpieces:
1. Ustadz Jefri - Shalawat Cinta
2. Duette - Pernah
3. D'Bagindas - Maafkan
4. Marcell - Mau Dibawa Kemana
5. SM*SH - Ada Cinta
6. H1RO - Komandan
7. Khaliza - Aku Pernah
8. Yangseku - Rindu


All the best for us all




Ps: we made choices and we don't look back

Soul Surfer

Yap... judul blog gue kali ini sama banget dengan judul film yang baru gue nonton semalam "Soul Surfer".

Ada satu quote yang gue sukai banget dari si Bethany Hamilton (si Soul Surfer). "I do not need easy, I just need possible".

Sedikit kilas balik siapa itu Bethany Hamilton,

"Bethany Meilani Hamilton (born February 8, 1990), daughter of Thomas and Cherilyn Hamilton, is an American professional surfer. She is known for surviving a shark attack in which she lost her left arm, and for overcoming the serious and debilitating injury to ultimately return to professional surfing. She wrote about her experience in the 2004 autobiography Soul Surfer: A True Story of Faith, Family, and Fighting to Get Back on the Board. In April 2011, the feature film Soul Surfer was released, based on the book and additional interviews" Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bethany_Hamilton

Ketika umur nya 14 tahun tangan kiri nya dimakan oleh Hiu besar dan dia kehilangan 60% dari darah tubuhnya, tapi bukannya terpuruk sebulan setelah kejadian itu dia kembali "masuk air" dan mulai bersurfing ria lagi. Tidak mudah memang untuk melakukan nya, karena sekarang tangan nya hanya satu lagi dan artinya ia harus lebih berusaha untuk melatih tangan nya itu, keseimbangan nya diatas papan surfing dll. But, dia ngebuktiin kalau hal itu mungkin and sekarang dia sudah menjadi salah seorang Professional Surfer, karena bagi dia "dia gak butuh nama nya MUDAH tapi yang dia butuhkan hanya KEMUNGKINAN."

Dan gue pun sadar, hidup gue mungkin gak mudah, jatuh bangun dalam study dan karier maupun cinta itu udah biasa gue alami tapi apa lantas gue menyerah dengan hidup gue? Hanya karena seluruh keluarga gue meninggal dalam Tsunami? Gak.. gue mana boleh nyerah toh gue gak kenapa-kenapa ini di Tsunami, gak seujung kuku pun gue terluka parah. Anyway... namanya hidup pasti ada pasang and surut, yah sama seperti ombak-ombak yang kita jumpai waktu lagi surfing :). Kalau suatu saat kita jatuh dan terhempas yah anggap aja itu latihan, latihan yang mengajarkan kita untuk lebih bisa menyeimbangkan harmoni setiap insan.

Jadi... mulai detik gue nonton tuh film gue bertekad kalau misalnya gue sedang dalam masalah di kantor, study, cinta dll gue gak akan minta kemudahan tapi yang gue minta cuma satu "Kemungkinan" untuk ngadepin masalah-masalah itu dan menjadikan diri gue lebih hebat lagi. Karena gue tahu.. hidup itu gak gampang tp bukan berarti susah juga kan???

Anyway... hal lain yang bikin gue jadi pengenan adalah BELAJAR SURFING.... whaaaa gmn bisa yak, berenang aj lebih banyak kelelep nya daripada bisa nya :(.

So.. guys... gue recommend loe pada utk nonton ni film "Soul Surfer" and kalau loe bilang loe gak ngerasa apa-apa setelah nonton pelem nih... hmmm well... gueeee... eloooooo.... speechless